Life is getting easier, now that I've come to terms with the fact that I've still got one. My kids are coping, and I'm coping. We've started picking up the pieces by just bending over and doing it!

I've got school and employment in the pipeline, I've started repairing my credit so we can someday buy a house. I've started reinstating my authority with my children and acting as head of household. We have our bills paid, we have food in the kitchen, and we have lots of time in…

My husband and I were meant to be together. We knew the moment we met. We moved in together after two month's of dating, and married after two years of living together. We had one child together, and each had children from previous relationships, but we were all a family. I was so proud, am so proud, of my husband. He was the most intelligent man I'd ever known, next to my father. He was beautiful, charming, funny, an amazing father, and held a successful career. We had Sixteen fantastic…

My first memory is of you, laughter in your brown eyes as we chased fireflies in the night.

You were only a child yourself, sweet seventeen and so full of life.

You gave up your life to have me, to keep me, to cherish me, to give me life.

We walked hand in hand through so many storms, you taught me how to pray

how to be strong, how to depend without being dependent and how to forgive without being walked on.

You taught me to dream big and to never settle…

As i was sitting here last night around this time i talked to my mother and she wanted a family get togather on the 4th of the july weekend . We planned for it for this year , as i was talking to a dear freind of my mother's last night i told him what she said he told me this is meant to be then if this is what your mom wanted we will move foword with it , so we are having one big party and in the honor of her . thats what she wanted us to do. have fun and laugh and joking…

Well, I already have one online journal more or less dedicated to this issue, but one more can't hurt I suppose. I just can't seem to talk about the situation enough. And this site is actually dedicated to dealing with grief, so maybe the feedback will be more productive. At least I'm among people who understand.

My father (step father, technically) died in a plane crash almost a year ago (the anniversary is this Friday). He flew an ultra light sports craft called a trike.…

It's been almost 2 years(aug 12) since the passing of my grandma ..I past week i have cried tears alone. I dont know why all of a sudden. How can I get through this pain of losing the most important person in my life? She was my rock the one that always protected me. and now she is gone , left me alone to fight the battles of life without her here. I cant stop crying ....WANT the PAIN to end. i want her back here to get me through this.I wanna give up :(…

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I just came back from Castle Rock Colorado, I live in Denver. My Mom is critically ill with liver failure.

My brother and wife are taking care of her. No one should ever see someone they love in that condition.

I pulled up and my niece was outside of the house and she did not wave or smile, she approached my

car and said "we don't want any chaos", I simply said I guess you dont know me very well.

I went inside and my Mom's house…

Today is a bad day, today would have been my 26th wedding anniversary. I think back on the beautiful day when I became Vern's wife. We danced and danced that evening. I never thought that he would be taken out of my life after 25 years. It has been 5 months since Vern died in surgery it still does not seem real. my memories of our life together seem to be fading . there is such a hole in my life. My son moved out of my home yesterday he had wanted to get an apartment for a long time but he…