Sometimes I think Im ok, and then it hits me. Everything I ever wanted was in him. I try to think there will be someone else...that maybe I will feel better if I do, but it just makes me sick. He was so different then the rest. It use to be I dreamed of the things we would do together and talk about, the holidays we would share once we got together. Now those dreams are wasted and useless in dreaming.

He was one of a kind, selfless, loving, romantic, thoughtful, encouraging, good…

What would you give,

to have your daddy back?

To hear him say,

everything will be okay.

How does a girl live,

without her dad?

All the things she needs,

that only he could give.

What would I give?

I would hug you more,

and give up looking cool.

I would do better with my life,

even finish school.

I would give you memories,

you deserved to have.

Never be ashamed,

to call you…

It was a month ago today I last spoke to him on skype. I still remember bits of our conversation. I hadn't seen him for a week. He was showing me how much weight he had lost and said that maybe this was the kick he needed to lose the weight. It had been 3 weeks that he couldn't keep anything down. He was becoming more lethargic. Doctors still didn't know what was wrong with him. He had blood tests done earlier in the week but they had made a mistake and he was due to have them redone again…

Tomorrow is my wedding anniversary, and it's hurting so much.  Barely a month has gone by since I lost my boo, I don't want to work, I don't want to go outside, I just stay in my room.  I'm so lost and empty, that I feel I have no life left to give.  I deal with dealth all the time, but it sure is different when it comes to your own.  I have twin sons 24, not from my husband, he was…

I lost my wife to cancer, now, her sister. (she and I became so close.).  She was there to help me get away from the pain and heartache although I never did get rid of it but she helped me through it more than ever.  A baby sister anyone would die for.  If someone is testing up in heaven, or if this is just a game, please let me make a statement.  YOU WON.  My love is gone and now my little sister, cancer is a horror in this world and I'm an m.d. to be but couldn't do anything.  In the end,…

My wish is that you can find some comfort in these words.

I had read this some time ago, but can't remember if it was here

or on another site.  It was given to me again today.

When I read this it just touched me as so true as my son was

so protective towards me (and his dad).

I felt like it was my Valentine from my son.

Valentine's day will be 7 months that he is gone

physically, but I don't believe he will ever be

truly…

The other day I watched a couple interacting with one another. He was very attentive and she seemed rather annoyed by his attentiveness.

In my world I would have given anything for him to be even slightly attentive to me. But it seems that guys don't like girls who want to give, who want to comfort, who want to love. The thrill of the chase. Its FUN.…

I attend college courses. I work two jobs. I give back to my grandmother, when I have the money. I make sure to say hi to most of everyone I meet. When someone needs me I go to them, because I know what it is like to feel as no one there.

I don't have any parents.

And even though my father is not deceased, at least…

We all want to be happy! Mad can sound harsh, but in actuality, feeling upset, in a bad mood, or depression all have roots in being mad.  It is nothing to be ashamed of because actually it is normal, as we all have felt mad at one time or another.

Most of us will experience a crisis or loss in our lifetime, and how we learn to deal with it, will determine our future happiness and success.

Grief - loss has so many…