Spinning sceneriors around in your head is not so abn o rmal. I do that with my daughter death, and the "what if.. . Or. I wonder her thoughts at her moment of death. I run all kinds of questiins about what happened; reality is she was sick in ICU and then she and her husband who was by her side were Never told that her last cat scan showed multiple systemic organ failure, yet less than 24 hours and without a follow up cat scan to confirm resolve of organ failure, the sent her home saying she was well enough to go home. I obtained even nite by doctor, radiologist etc and No where on those chart documents did it have a plan to treat her, or do the necessary procedures they said they couldn't do because she had been an alcoholic for 18 months out of her shirt 33 years and "brought it on herself" as if she was a throw away. My b aby was Not a throw away. they just sent her home to die without telling anyone. I would have taken her to a hospital with morals and integrity. She would not have been left alone that night had we known, both lungs were collapsed and all organs failing on that scan just before discharge. I could have said goodbye if another hospital couldn't save Her. My baby only drank for 18 months because she was in this same horrible pain we all are feeling now when her 7 year old died, my grandaughter. My brother before that. Her step brother committed suicide and step father died of heart ache just before his sons funeral. She was in tremendous pain as I am now , as all of her losses were my losses too. This is all to overwhelmiSpinning sceneriors around in your head is not so abn o rmal. I do that with my daughter death, and the "what if.. . Or. I wonder her thoughts at her moment of death. I run all kinds of questiins about what happened; reality is she was sick in ICU and then she and her husband who was by her side were Never told that her last cat scan showed multiple systemic organ failure, yet less than 24 hours and without a follow up cat scan to confirm resolve of organ failure, the sent her home saying she was well enough to go home. I obtained even nite by doctor, radiologist etc and No where on those chart documents did it have a plan to treat her, or do the necessary procedures they said they couldn't do because she had been an alcoholic for 18 months out of her shirt 33 years and "brought it on herself" as if she was a throw away. My b aby was Not a throw away. they just sent her home to die without telling anyone. I would have taken her to a hospital with morals and integrity. She would not have been left alone that night had we known, both lungs were collapsed and all organs failing on that scan just before discharge. I could have said goodbye if another hospital couldn't save Her. My baby only drank for 18 months because she was in this same horrible pain we all are feeling now when her 7 year old died, my grandaughter. My brother before that. Her step brother committed suicide and step father died of heart ache just before his sons funeral. She was in tremendous pain as I am now , as all of her losses were my losses too. This is all to overwhelming and it's 3 am again. Still no sleep. I HATE THIS ALL TOO MUCH and I AM ALONE! ng and it's 3 am again. Still no sleep. I HATE THIS ALL TOO MUCH and I AM ALONE!