Amanda
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I am 24 years old. A new nurse in hopes of finding some support. I live far from my family and friends, in which I am having to face the sting of loss alone (that's how it feels anyway).
About my Loss:
My boyfriend of six years was my best friend. We were soul mates, if anyone even believes in that anymore. My love died from a drug overdose and I feel in some way responsible for his death. I wish I could have done more or not have been so degrading at times. I never even got to see his body before his family cremated him because I was states away when I got the phone call. His father called me and said so calmly that he had passed away in his sleep and the coroner believes it to be an accidental overdose. I couldn't breathe. The one person who was always there for me, someone I always relied on was gone just like that. No goodbye, nothing. I knew he had a history of using prescribed pain medications, but I was blinded to the fact that he was still using. The deadly combination of the pills caused him to stop breathing in his sleep and never wake up. Made me question everything about him and our relationship for the past six years. How can you think you know someone entirely and feel like you do not know them at all? We had a whole life ahead of us. We were to get engaged this summer. Married by next fall. Begin to have a family right away. Now I am left with the broken pieces of my heart and with no answers as to why?

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Speed Weasel commented on Speed Weasel's blog post A Return to GriefShare and a Crisis of Identity
"GriefShare is a church based support group. They do have meetings online, but the usual format is a group of people experiencing a loss getting together weekly to watch videos (13 weeks total) about grief and loss. After the video, we talk about the…"
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Addie replied to Kali's discussion It was not supposed to be like this in the group Being the Other Woman/Other Man
"Kali I’m so so sorry you are going through this. Grief is hard enough, but going through it secretly, all the while having to continue showing up for your kids, is just brutal. Perhaps your friend was careful to hide your conversations behind…"
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It was not supposed to be like this

In 2014 I met the most amazing man ever. We were both in our very early 20s and were looking for different things at the time. We ceased communication for roughly 6 months. During which time, he completed basic training and joined the Air Force. By the time we reconnected he was already at his first duty station.. 8 hours away.We decided we wanted to continue our relationship and proceeded to cultivate a deeply emotional connection. Regular calls and video chats, visits while he was home on…See More
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