My mom died 4 months ago
My mom had pulmonary fibrosis. She was sick for a few years. It was funny how when my grandmother smoked, my mom would always say-I’m gonna die from second hand smoke. My mom never smoked. She died from lung disease. Ironic.I was fine at the funeral. Planning. Talking to everyone. I thought u handled it great. Now 4 months later, I’m a mess. Some days I’m perfectly fine, but others I can’t walk down the street without crying. I keep thinking that I haven’t talked to her in a while & I…See More
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Hi Thomas. I understand how you feel. I lost my dad in December 2010 when an operation he had went wrong (and we then found out after he died that he also had pancreas cancer) and my mom died of a heart attack in September 2011. I am not married and have no children. I have a younger sister and we haven't been that close in the past but now we are all each other has and I hope we will be able to grow closer as time goes by. I feel like a part of me has died. I feel so alone even when there are people around me. Nobody I talk to really understands how I feel, only once someone has experienced this will they know exactly how we feel. I cannot begin to imagine how the rest of my life will be without my parents. I hope time will heal our pain, but this time of year, with Christmas around the corner, it will be particularly hard to cope.
Dear Thomas,
I also lost my darling Mother - Nancy to cancer June 6, 2011. My 3 sisters are not what I would describe as healthy, loving sisters. I am so different from them. It's hard for me to understand their actions. I have been so blessed by the friends I have found on this site. I feel I am a true support system now. My mom was my everything. She was always there for me. I cry, I pray and I do the best I can to make it through each day. I feel empty and sad all the time. I will share with you that praying and putting yourself in Gods hands is what keeps me from truly being empty and alone. I miss mom constantly...she is always in my thoughts. I see her suffering from the radiation and cancer. That is hard to get out of your head isn't it? It's just me, my dog and 3 cats now living here in Florida. A sunny day goes without being notice these days...food is tasteless. I go to work...a nice distraction. But when I get home....just as lonely as can be knowing I cannot pick up the phone and call her...to make plans for the weekend. She was my weekend warrior at the shopping mall. Movies..dinners out. I understand your emptiness..we all do. We are adults...but still children. My dad left us when we were kids...he died 4 years ago we heard. I am here as your friend. Hugs Sue