I lost my Mom on July 25th of this year(2017) 6 years after my Dad. I don't understand why I cant cry, I mean I know its a complicated process when things don't go as planned. My Mom spent some much time in and out of the hospital the last 15 years; every time was "the time" but then she would rally and be shopping days later. I admit I thought she would live forever, or at least longer than me so I never really saw this day coming. Still I…