I spent all of 2018 basically paralyzed from losing my business, house, supposed friends, and wife. The covert narc wife's mask came off during that process. It was absolutely devastating, especially in a small town you both grew up in. It took a couple years out of state to heal, but I did. At this point my biological dad had been gone 6 years. I had 3 immediate family members, 2 nieces, and one nephew left.

    I my sisters liver was failing and my mom had just began hospice. My Step dad of 40 years at 85 weak and failing. It was close to 20 weeks of either hospice or ICU. Mom and sis passed 6 weeks apart, it was a dual memorial. 

   I realize there is one more soon to lose and care for. I thought at the very least I would have some remnants of family left. Due to what I have been witnessing from these kids regarding the estate I have come to the realization that I will walk away with zero family ties.  It's the oddest realization. No net.. and even worse not one person on the planet who knows my journey left. Losing the family is enough, the betrayal is almost as bad. I think I'm fine at the moment but my gut says I might go off the rails. It's scary as f.

      Losing all the material stuff I later saw as a  spiritual blessing.. I don't know how I will see this later. I don't even know if it's hit me yet. I am not a poor me person, but if I stuff this like I know I can it will not end well.