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Comment by Dayna on October 2, 2019 at 5:58am

I am very sorry to hear about your Mom passing. I lost my Mother to an overdose 9 years ago and just my identical twin sister last month to an overdose. My mother and I were not as close as I would have liked. The disease kept her depressed and isolated. It was so painful getting the phone call that she was gone. I still have a hard time with her passing especially around holidays or specific dates. With my sister I am having a reapply really hard time. My kids and I miss her so much and I did not see this coming. I did not know she recently started using. It is a horrible feeling losing anyone at all but when they are so close to you, it makes it so much harder to move foward. I dont know how you have been dealing with things but for me I have been all over the place with my emotions but mainly angry that this has happened as well as alot of periods still in denial and I dont want to face this as a permanent situation. I am religious but it has brought me to feel angry and put blame on others. Such as GOD. I get angry when people say she is in a better place or GOD needed an angel, she isn't suffering. What about me? I know your little one is 4. How is he/she handling it? Have you tried talking to a therapist one on one? I did not go to therapy after my Moms passing and it has been hard for me. I am looking for someone after my sister has passed. We need to get it out and be able to grieve. The hard part being a parent is not having time to ourselves to reflect and grieve because we tend to take care of everyone else. Look in your areas for grief support groups but really one on one therapy. I signed up here hoping it would give me more communication and feel like I can relate to others and then relate to me but there isn't a whole lot of activity.