Thank you Lisa for your kind words. I don't know how to vent right now, I feel like I am dead inside. I go thru the day doing things like I use to but with no feelings inside. You are right, I am traumatized with no way of processing being hit from all sides. I will take you up on your offer when I am in a bad way.

Sharron

march will be 2 years that I my sister and brother in law died tragically in a fire. I still struggle daily and cant wrap my brain around the fact that she really is not here. Everyone always says with time it gets better for me it just feels like with time I only just realize the emptiness and void is just deeper. I struggle daily with depression but try so hard to put on my fake smile and just some how appear normal during my days. I am trying to be supportive to my sister's kids especially during the holidays but again when I am around them it is just another gut punch of how things will never be the same with my sister gone. I just really want to get through these holidays. I know for all of you the holidays are the worse.

Lisa,

I am so sorry for the losses that you have suffered.

Death is without question an enemy. This is What the Bible even calls it.

When Jesus had a good friend die, he was moved to tears and groaned inside himself because to the pain that death causes.

I deal with the losses by focusing on the HOPE we have for the future. In the Bible we find 8 resurrections where we see family reunited with their dead loved one. My favorite is in Mark 5:41, 42. This account talks about a 12 year old girl who had died. Jesus brought the young girl back to life. When the parents were reunited with her it says 

     "And at once they were beside themselves with great ecstasy"

That's how we WILL feel when we are reunited with the loved ones we have lost.

None of this takes our loneliness or pain away. It does however give us HOPE. This hope helps us navigate through this painful journey.

I hope that you can find some HOPE to grab onto. If I can help please let me know  

Hi Lisa thank you so much for your kind words about my poems. I'm so sorry about your multiple losses. Grief even when acknowledged is very hard to live with and is unique for all of us. This site should help you realise you are not alone. If we can in someway gain comfort from each other it can be a small respite from our daily struggle.{{{Hugs}}}