Thank you so much for your very kind words.  I hope that you find here the help that you need.  It is helping me just to write things out.  And receiving generous comments like your is a wonderful bonus.

Dear, Billy Jo, sorry for not responding - had another terrible week. Just something new every day. I saw your youtube channel. You have a big loving heart and your songs are very good.

My childhood problems were important before March when my husband suddenly got sick. Now I only have this pain - lost such a great man who loved me, and sure lost my life and have no idea where to start.

Do you know?

Hello, Bonnie.

Thank you very much for visiting my page and your support. A special thanks for sharing your story - it is very inspiring. Amazingly you found so much love in your heart that you could understand and forgive your mother. I just "celebrated" 46 years without my mother. I don't know her, I miss her, I love her, I blame her, I hate her for leaving me - spectrum of different feelings. I think I love her more.

Actually I had the same childhood but with my 3 step moms. So I can relate. It was hard but still easier as those were not my mothers so the pain was different. For many many years I hate my father. I know him, I know his childhood, I respect even some parts of him but in general I hate and blame him.

So I have problems with both parents. They both changed my life so many times, so dramatically. I think I am having all my relationships and professional issues because of damaged childhood.

But still something can be done. Even when they both are not in this life anymore. I still can learn, understand and forgive them. I must! I will! Not right now when I am going through the hell, but later, not next year, probably some months from now....

This is amazing that you don't give up and grew into the whole complete beautiful person. I think you can upload your song to youtube but not sure. I am waiting for your song and I am sure it will be perfect as it will come from the bottom of your loving heart.

Sending to you hugs from Dallas, Texas.

Nora with love and respect.

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