Hi Miriam, You have my deepest admiration and empathy. I don't have any family left to speak of. For years there was no one to talk to about my daily life. Although I found it difficult to be open with people and preferred to help them rather than myself. I wonder if you have thought about starting a group on facebook where genuine friendships could be made with people like your uncle? Not to replace him but to help you with grieving. That is a process only you can deal with and friends on this site will definitly help you along that road. I wish you loads of success and that you take care of yourself on this difficult journey. huggs, John