So sorry for your loss and pain, my soulmate died 1/29/20, been so bad for me to. I don’t let people know too much, no way I want to be taken out of my house. I feel like some people just want to watch me crash and are more nosey than concerned.

so sorry to hear about ur loss.  Mine died on 10/10/2017 and i just cant comprehend how he vanished in front of my eyes

Marjorie,

I rescued her the year after my Husband died. She was 9 years old and she has done nothing but bring joy to my life. She is my companion.  

Marjorie,

The only reason I see my therapist is to kept me sane and I can talk with her about my feelings, my family and friends just do not understand why I am still grieving. Thank God for her or I don't know how I would be able to go on without my Julian. I do have a dog Babie J would gives me a lot of comfort.

Marjorie,

I made that statement to Maxey because despite seeing the therapist. I was so close to my Husband, he was my soulmate and the love of my life. I just feel it will last until I die. I go on with life, but am just existing.

Marjorie,

The first year my Husband died I saw a grief counselor given by Hospice, I was still not doing good after a year so my grief counselor suggested a therapist and gave me her name. You can ask your doctor to give you some names and just make an appointment to see one.

Marjorie,

Yes, I have had complicated grief for five years, it gets a little better every year, I see a Psychotherapist and a Psychiatrist for meds. I am told by them that is does not last forever, I hope so.

I will be 64 in March and I feel the same way. Right now I am near panic because weather tomorrow(I live in the States) forecasts a rather major snowstorm. My son faces a 1 hour commute and was already in an accident last week and now needs to drive MY car. For some reason God is really testing me and mine. I used to be a more positive/upbeat person. Now I just worry. Having that other person really did bring balance to our lives and made challenges easier...

Please don't measure your grief against anyone else's. Each of us grieves differently. I'm sorry your grief overwhelmed you to the point of having a breakdown. Sometimes I think I may have one, too. Things that happen in everyday life I now find difficult to handle. I  agonize over making decisions. I worry about everything. Thank God for a couple of good friends who are always willing to listen. Just be kind to yourself!