Hi Nicole. I am so sorry for your loss and suffering. I have been on here for almost 4 years, since loosing my husband suddenly as well. Just like you we had a huge life time of plans for the future. Even arguing who the grandkids are gonna like more. He was a goof ball. BUT , GOD had other plans. Unfortunately and very sad, but one thing I learned is not to question. It was the most difficult thing to do, when all what was in my had was WHY, BUT WHY. I didn’t want to end up bitter, angry, miserable. I had 2 kids to take care of and they were my priority. I had to stay strong for them foremost.

I don’t want to overwhelm you with stuff. The journey we were put on, is extremely difficult. But I just want to say, it will get easier, it will get better. The process is different for all, its what we choose to do and how we choose to move forward, is what will help you. WITH MOST LOVE for you and your kids. Vicki