Hi Lauren, the sudden death of someone close brings with it every emotion you can imagine and more. Anger is the most common one. Perhaps not for the same reasons as yours. Alcoholism is an addiction and it rules peoples minds. It controls people beyond what we think as normal. They see the world differently. All they want is their addiction and nothing else. It may also be that your Dad had he been sober may not have been able to save your Mom. Your Dad didn't kill her, the alcohol did.

We always want to blame someone for our loss. That is only natural and it is part of the grieving process. This site helped me and many others. Don't hide your feelings. Always be open no matter what other people say. There is no length of time our grief will last for. Don't let anyone say different. Sending you a special hugg from Scotland. John