Reina, my heartfelt condolences on the loss of your mom. I lost my only child Angela (33 years young) just over a year ago. Mother and daughter bonds are so strong but at the same time so fragile. Time does not heal our grief but we do learn how to integrate it into our daily lives...we are changed forever. I too thought that as time passed I would move away from her but I have chosen to believe that as time passes I am moving closer to being with her again. You really will be okay it just doesn't seem that way right now. Virtual hugs going your way...take care, Laura