Thank you Laura.  This site is helping me as I hope it helps you just to know that there are other people that are where you are at with the void of space that nothing fills.  My mother was my soul, my light, my life, my best friend, and the only person that truly ever understood me.  She made me complete.  I too often think that I don't not want to live without her.  Life is no good without her.  Every time I hear the word mom - I just want to die.  I don't know how or why to even go on...I do understand.  My life is no good without her.  People say oh bit gets better....wrong.
People say - time heals...wrong again...I can hardly make through an hour not to mention a day.  For me it has not gotten any better.  The void in my heart is as if someone took my soul.

Love always.  I pray for us both to find some comfort.