I dont know how it is to have to take care of others after my mom passed. But, I can feel your pain. I lost my mom at 17, its been 3 years and I still have trouble dealing. I know how it is to be confused, not able to sleep, stressed, no one to turn to. its fustrating. Especially when you have friends saying that they are there for you but when you try talking about it, the room gets quiet, they get weird. I know how it feels to be too young to be going through this. 1 year is still pretty fresh. I am hoping that you get something from this...but what I've learned is to take the good with the bad....and seriously TAKE the good. you deserve it! im sure your mom would want you to enjoy the good in life.

i know what you're going through. i held my mother's hand,while she took her last breathe. i want to say things will get better in time,but i haven'tgot to that stage yet.i'm sorry for your lose. may god spend be with you.

Dear Kirsti,
I can only imagine how difficult it must be to have lost your mum at such a young age. My mom passed recently, on Nov. 22nd at the age of 81, and she had many conditions which put her at risk but still it was a real shock when it happened. And it does leave a big hole as our mom's are the one person who has been with us from the moment of our conception.
Your Mom is with you still but she is not in a body like we are anymore, so she isn't suffering anymore, but those left behind are.
I may not be able to say much to you that will help your pain right now, but you aren't alone, so many people have lost their mom's and others that they love and need so much. Sometimes it's hard but one thing I've learned is that it's important to try and think positively and not let yourself fall into a negative spiral, and I know it's hard not to have it happen sometimes, but perhaps talking to a bereavement counselor will help and also know that you are stronger than you think you are and so are your dad and your brothers. It is just going to take time and please give yourself the time and be gentle with yourself as much as possible.
Perhaps in a bereavement group you may find a young person like yourself who is going through the same thing and together you may be able to help each other get through this time. Just try to remember your Mum doesn't want you to be sad or to suffer, but she is no longer suffering and that is one good thing out of it all.
I hope I have helped in some small way. Please take care of yourself and know that your Mum's love is shining down on you now and always just like always. You can picture it shining down on you as a beauiful golden light that goes with you everywhere.
Hugs,
Diane