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Comment by Amanda Ab on November 9, 2011 at 1:10pm

Hi, Michael

There are ok days, and not so ok days for me lately. I use to wait for my husband to come home from work every evening at 8:15 p.m. on the dot. Now, 8:15 p.m. comes and goes and my husband is not walking through that door.

Winter is here and very much depressing, I can say. The change of weather, the rainy days, just make me feel so much more alone and missing my husband a lot more, than what I am already missing him. He enjoyed this type of weather so very much. He enjoyed just staying at home, watching a movie, and playing with our son. I now, find myself, going through these days of rain, alone at home. Holidays approaching, and just so much wish, I can just "fast forward" those days, and go on to other days. Just the fact that many families are out there enjoying and looking forward to all of these special days to come, makes me a bit jealous, in a good way. However, I remember, I too was one of them just last year. When all of my in laws came over for Xmas and New Year's Eve. We had so much fun. My husband made it fun. He was trully the "life of the party". He was real carismatic and would light up a room with his presence. I am finding that my son, Sebastian, is like that too. Everywhere he goes, he quickly finds a new friend to play, and gets everyone to soon adore him.

Thanks for reading, Michael. Oh and I like the idea of the "Aerobic Grief Workout Video". I will be one to buy it.

Amanda

Comment by MIchael A Ballard on November 8, 2011 at 8:44pm

Thank you Amanda and hope things are going pretty good for you.

I somehow find a way to be courageous throughout this mystery world of grief!

And what a mystery it all is!

I used to come home from work to my wife and two kids, and now it's just my boy and me.  

Where did everybody go??

My step-daughter wanted to live with her grandma.

Everyday that I wake up it is a new challenge, and I am basically ready to kick it in the ass!

I think I'll make an Aerobic Grief Workout Video.....hey, they have just about everything else, why not huh?

Take care,

Michael

Comment by Amanda Ab on November 7, 2011 at 11:22pm

Michael, great to hear you. We have not heard from you in a while, and we need your gift of writting on these forums. Oh and by the way, Great answer to the definition of what life really is!

Thanks for posting.