I'm a big dreamer. I dream of many things.

Just reading a book will effect my dreams. I read The Hunger Games trilogy early last year and almost every night I dreamt that I was actually in the arena of the games.

I have had dreams of my sister since she has passed. Some of them are good - about us growing up, of her being older than her 23 years with children of her own. Some of them are bad - the things her killer did to her, the pain she went through and I have even dreamt that her body was exhumed (no reason was apparent in that dream) and I saw her decomposed body.

Last night I didn't dream of her. However, I did dream.. about her killer. Her boyfriend of 6 years, whom I did know. A few years back there was a young girl that went missing from the Baltimore area. Her name was Phylicia Barnes. Four months after in April 2011, her body was found in the Susquehanna river.

In the dream I had last night, Brandon (my sister's boyfriend/killer), was at a candle light vigil holding a picture of Phylicia that was ran in the news paper. His head was down, as if he were praying. I recognized the location of the vigil. Outside of my sister's apartment, where he killed her. Becky wasn't there. It didn't make sense that she wasn't there. She was alive then. He never looks up in my dream.

I have never been good at deciphering my dreams. I've never felt the need to. This dream has me perplexed. Why on earth would I dream about him? Someone who has done something so incredibly horrible to someone I loved deeply. How is he able to invade my dreams? What does this mean?