Ste

This is how it feels without you -the constant pain and heartbreak that happens when I go to bed , when I wake up and at odd times when I have a moment of oblivion like a day dream and then the certain realisation of your death hits me like a knife piercing my heart and soul that you are forever gone.

Yet I still feel connected to you -how can you be gone-I still love you and miss you more than life itself. After two months It doesn't seem to get better I have learnt that I will be forever changed and forever in pain and I have to learn to somehow live with it like its an illness but the only medication that eases it is talking about it and concentrating on things that I love and make me happy like my little girl.If I didn't have her I would have surely died of a broken heart as you even said to me- see you in the next life. All I can advise others is to talk to people about what you are feeling you will always have your memories and your love will never die.Live each day the best you can take your time acknowledge your grief and pain. The strength of your grief is the strength of the love you felt for him/her which is very precious.<3