THIS PAINFUL JOURNEY ALONE.

I'm only 2 months into my greif.  And I don't see how it's supposse to get better.  I hurt all the time.  I'm still in the denial stage.  I truly don't feel as though my daughter is really gone.  She was my only child.  She was killed in an auto accident.  She was the only beauty in my life.  I was so proud of her.  She graduate college with a bachelors degree in education.  She was all I had; I'm not married and my "little family" is no more.  I will never hear the patter of little feet calling me "Grandma".  And that just cuts me to the bone.  I haven't been able to cry for my child.  Tears stream down, but I can't cry.  Everyday is a new battle. 

 

But today was difficult the person that I thought was my closest freind hurt me tremdously today. Made this painful journey even harder. 

Quote:  "You need to stop acting silly; go out and have fun.  My cousin lost her husband and she keeps busy by going out with her "DAUGHTER". (End Quote.)

 

OMG REALLY???? How dare he compare my greif of losing my only child my "DAUGHTER"; unexpectly and suddenly; to his cousin losing her husband to cancer.  Granted any loss is horible and I feel for her but she knew and was able to prepare her self for that day and say ""goodbye". 

I didn't get to say "goodbye".  I didn't get to see my child before she died. He really upset me.  I couldn't even talk to him anymore.  I'm tired, I'm scared and I'm alone with no one to lean on at home. 

 

I can't lean on my mother due to my she suffers from Altzheimers.  My dad however is wonderful but he is suffering from his own morning for the loss of his only grand-child, plus he morns for my morning.  So, I'm trying to be strong for him and I will not let him see me fall apart.  Plus he takes care of my mother.  Friends are becoming distant and they have their own lives and family to take care of my mother. 

 

I'm just alone in this.  And I know there is someone out there who is experiencing the same thing.   

Views: 74

Comment

You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!

Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community

Comment by bluebird on August 23, 2014 at 6:11pm

People say stupid, stupid things to grieving people.  Sometimes they mean well, sometimes they're just idiots, but either way it hurts. You aren't wrong to feel as you do.

I'm sorry your daughter died. My beloved husband died suddenly too, and now life is hell. We are all suffering. My experience isn't exactly the same as yours, and no two people's experiences with this hell on earth are the same anyway, but I get it.

Do you have any (other) friends you can speak with? Or possibly a counselor? (not saying you should see a counselor -- I'm certainly not going to -- but it does help some people).

Groups

Latest Activity

david karpe posted a status
"I'm wondering if Myrna is well. Happy new year to Myrna and everybody."
Jan 15
0 Comments
david karpe is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Jan 15
Welcome Them!
Sasha Moshko posted a discussion

My Fathers Loss

Many years ago, I lost my father after his battle with colon cancer that later spread to his bones. The grief stayed with me longer than I expected. Ambrosia Behavioral Health helped me work through that loss, understand my emotions, and find healthier ways to cope and move forward. https://www.ambrosiatc.comSee More
Jan 14
0 Comments
Sasha Moshko left a comment for Sasha Moshko
"Professional help gives you a safe space to talk, understand your emotions, and learn healthy ways to cope. It can make grief feel less overwhelming and easier to manage over time. https://www.ambrosiatc.com"
Jan 14
MELANIE WALENDOWSKY BAKER is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Jan 14
Welcome Them!
Krystal Swinehart joined Jodi Denton's group
Thumbnail

Traumatic loss of an only child

I started this group so that people who have lost their only child or the only child that remained, as in my case, could come together because I believe people that did have a child or children who now have none have special issues.
Jan 12
61 Comments
Krystal Swinehart joined Dayna's group
Thumbnail

Loss of a loved one to alcohol, substance abuse or suicide

If you have lost a loved one to alcohol, substance abuse or suicide please share your story or feelings here. Share the love and beauty of the one you lost. Losing someone any of these ways is not natural and can be hard to understand and ask why? I lost my Mother to an overdose 9 years ago. She also suffered from major depression. Her doctor got her hooked on pain medication and she was addicted most of my life. These doctors who were suppose to help her ended up killing her in the end. I also…See More
Jan 12
1 Comment
Karen R. replied to Entony's discussion Movies about grief that actually understand loss — any recommendations?
"So sorry!💔💔💔💔💔"
Jan 2

© 2026   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service