I dont know how much longer i can handle the stuff life keeps throwing at me and continue to stay strong and keep fighting, when i dont even know how to do it, nothing makes a difference .. Alexcia Mckamey i miss you so much i keep trying but its so hard to do this without you here .. I just keep going no where no matter how hard i keep fighting. I love you , this is sooooo hard !! Wish you were here with me so badly princess. I know you would want to be here with me more than anything.. Thats what hurts the most baby , you didnt get a choice.. Im so sorry alexcia !!! ! .. (Having a really hard day today.. )