i lost the love of my life 4 years ago this coming monday and i lost my mom 5 months ago on the same date. here is the story with diana i met her at her job and it was love at first sight and from that day i knew i found the one who i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. at the time she was going though some major health issues but i was there for her and it took time but we got married and we had the time of our lives because we were together .we had some issues we had to deal with but we did. in sept of 09 she got sick and she was in and out of hospitals for a period of time. i was there for her. but the hardest thing i ever had to do was watching her die but before that i had to sign the papers and  that was tough and now with my mom gone i'm back to square one. could someone out there know how to get though this because i have nothing left i'm just going though the motions there are sometimes i want to end the whole thing but i can't do that but the anger i have is not at them for passing on but i'm angry at myself for not doing enough to save them.i'm really killing myself inside over that please give me some advise