In a three month period I lost my grandfather, gave birth three weeks later to a beautiful baby girl and then four weeks later lost my mom.  It has been a difficult year and I am just trying to stay a float these days.  I have waves of sadness that just overcome me at any given minute.  My mom is on my mind constantly.  Dealing with my grandfather's death was hard but not nearly as trying as my mother's.  My grandfather died after a long struggle due to health issues and his age.  My mother on the other hand died suddenly.  In fact, she died about ten minutes after hanging up the phone with me, exactly four weeks after my daughter's birth and on her actual due date.  There were no signs, just a totally unexpected death caused by a condition she was unaware of.  I am hoping that by sharing my thoughts and story, I will begin to feel a little more at ease with everything that has happened.