I wish  I coul say I  had a close relationship with my parents  like many here but did not -They were quite dysfunctional. But my  husband Howard, who died May 2010 was my ALL  Pal, lover, husband,confidant, supporter of my dreams- at times even a  parental figure since I had none. No one loved me like he did . I dream of him I  think of our happy times  over 47 yrs . Then my heart sinks when I realize I will not see him  ever again. I am not one who believes our souls will meet in heaven.  Our heaven was here on earth . he died of  stage 4  lung cancer- smoked for 50 + yrs  His dad died same way  What a waste.. I never smoked. Hated it so much.. the stink, mess,  its a legal poison.and leads to C.O.P.D. /  emphysema.       Bless you all who grieve for a loved one.