So I have never done this blog thing and I have no idea what I am doing. Im not worried about spelling or anything else I just want to get what has been stuck in side out.

I have always had a crazy family tree, I'm just gonna leave at by the time I was 3 my grandparents offically became my parents. My father loved me adored me took care of me, put his happiness on hold to raise me. My mother was there. I am not cold she and I never connected becuase of the pain my bio mom inflicted on her. I was punished for my biomoms faults. We were never close in fact I didn;t feel like I knew my mom until is was to late and I lost her.

My dad died nov 2009 from a brain anysrums an issue his sister and mother also passed from. I had to give the DNR over the phone while 3000 miles away on a sunday morning from my work phone. I asked one question would he be able to read his morning paper the dr said no we would be lucky if he was a vegtable. I jumped on the quickest plane and made it just in time to see him final breath. Thanksgiving weekend forever blackend.

I moved my mom out to el paso with me 5 monts and two weeks from the day my dad died she passed.

Thats all i want to say right now.