This weekend im going to look at apartments for college. I cant even imagine how hard its going to be without him there. I know hell be there with me in spirit, but i need him here in person. It really hits me hard that he wont be here to help me move out or to tell me hes proud of me. They say it gets easier as time passes, but in my case, not so much. i feel like everyday my heart tears a little more...the emptiness i feel gets worse...the pain of not having him here gets worse. i just hope that he knows i love him. regardless of how many times i saw him before he passed. i love him, so much, with all my heart, and ill always be daddys little girl.