We just passed the 9 month mark. It is just so surreal. My son in law and my granddaughter and I spent the day together. I wore a pair of her jeans, the urn/locket I have and one of her watches so she would be with us. We played putt putt golf, went to the video arcade and ate out. The weather was a typical cool fall day. She would have enjoyed it so much. The pain isn't as sharp as it was but all day the next day I felt such sadness and loss. I look at her picture and see that beautiful smile and feel the hole she left in our lives. It seems as if I am trudging through mud to get through each day. I know it will ease, but it seems that people are less willing to listen to me talk about her so much, except for her husband.
He hasn't been able to sleep and finally went to the doctor to get some help. He is doing a wonderful job with their daughter. He is more patient and gentle with her than he was in the past. She is ADHD so is at times very demanding. She is so like her mom at that age without the ADHD. Very creative and imaginative and driven to succeed in school. She has been on the A/B honor roll ever since her mom left us. She would be so proud.