I seem to miss my Dad more each day as I approach the one year anniversary of his sudden death. My Dad was a Veteran, but never fought in a war. With today being Memorial Day, I felt the hole in my heart deepen when I heard the patriotic songs especially Taps played at our community Memorial Day Ceremony. I have not heard Taps played since his funeral so it brought back the feelings from that day when the service members presented me with his flag. It may seem horrible, but I have not been back to the cemetary since that day for several reasons. I want to remember him on his birthday that is coming on June 9th and again on the day he died (July 5), but I don't know how and I don't know if I just want to be alone on those days to cry and miss him. I wonder how my two children feel about his passing now or if they realize it has almost been a year since he died...so many things I wonder about...I wish I could talk to him just one more time to make sure he knows I love him and miss him terribly...