Remembering the day of my senior prom. I thought my dad wasn't going to see me before me and my date left. I remember being so upset with his parents because they wanted to drive us. But we wanted to go ourselves. I was getting worried because we needed to be leaving and my dad wasn't home yet. I remember saying if he doesnt get here I am not going to be happy. The next thing I see is my dad coming up the road flying in his truck. He didn't even pull in the drive way he parked across the street I believe. He came across the road and as soon as me he stop in his track and stared at me. I said dad what are you looking at and he my baby girl being a wonderful beautiful young lady. He said you are all grown up. I could see tears in his eyes. I ran into his arms and said no matter how old I get I will always be your little girl. He said I know and I love you. I said I love you too dad. We got the pictures together and we was getting ready to go and he said have fun and besafe. I said Always and I will see you tonight when I get home. That was May 12, 2007. Another good memory was my Graduation Day and my Graduation Party. When my Dad said We finally did it we got her through school and no more kids to put through she was our last to get through. Even though it put more gray hair on my head but she made it. I love you baby girl and know I am just proud of you for everything you have done with your life. (Who knew that the ballfield where my graduation party was in June of 2007. Ended up being the place they had to fly my dad from to go back to the hospital and he didn't return home. Instead I get the news that he was gone). So now I am reminded of all the good times we had at the ballfield but I am also remind of the horror that my mom had to face when she the amblance where to go to lifeflight him. :( I wish they didn't have to do it from the ballfield but I understand they had to land somewhere to try and get him help in time.

Remembering being with mom going shopping for my prom dress, with her my sister and a friend of my sister. It took almost all day for us to find a dress. I found the dress I wanted but not the exact colors but it was mainly black so I was happy. My first words to mom is do you think that would let me take of the straps and she said I don't know. Well Alicia was looking at the dress and she said mom I don't think whoever takes her dress in will be able to keep the straps. She said we will talk to your father when we get home and explain to him. Well we go home and I put the dress on to show dad and gram and told dad about the straps. Dad looked at mom and said well she did say she wanted a strapless dress so I guess I gotta be okay with it. But make sure it won't fall off of her. I put my arms around dad and said thank you dad and I love you and dont worry it wont fall if anything I won't be able to breath at all instead. He smiled and said well you to need to breath. Me, mom, and grandma just all starting laughing. I said now I know what to look forward for you to say when I get married. Sadly none of them will be there on my wedding day :( :( they will be there in sprit thats it. 

remembering grandma and how she loved to watch 7th Heaven every monday when it was on. Sitting there just talking about everything and anything. Listening to stories about when she was growing up or when I was a baby. Her sitting on the porch swing watching us kids play or swim. Her and I snapping the greenbeans to get them ready for canning. Remember her in the kitchen for hours canning. Her standing at the ringer washer washing clothes. taking them out and hanging them on the line or mom doing that. remember going to Jamesway with her and mom and I knock the truck out of gear and mom and grandma freaking out because they couldn't figure out what happen to the truck. and here I knocked it out of gear but it was so funny because I made them freak out. Walking the dirt road picking berries and flowers with grandma. Doing he loves me he loves me not with the daisies. I really miss all this. 

MOSTLY OF WHAT KEEPS ME GOING IS THE MEMORIES I TRY TO REMEMBER OF THEM ALL AND ALSO THE PICTURES AND VIDEOS I HAVE ALL OF US TOGETHER. HELPS ME TO GO ON. BECAUSE I KNOW THATS WHAT THEY WANT FOR ME IS TO LIVE MY LIFE. I JUST WISH THEY WERE HERE THOUGH BECAUSE I KNOW MEMORIES CANT BRING THEM BACK. PLUS I WISH THEY COULD MEET THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND BE HERE THE DAY WE PLAN TO GET MARRIED. :(