Hi, my name is Chloe and this is the first time I have attempted to get any type of grief counseling since I lost my husband of 20 yrs and my mother very unexpectedly in 2009.  I have tried several different ways to move on but I just do not seem able to do that.  Their deaths seems like it was just yesterday to me and each day when I wake up I must remind myself that all this is really real and not just a bad dream.  However, I do fight sleep a lot because I have such horrific dreams.  Actually, dreams that are not healthy and I do not believe everyone that loses someone they love has the type of dreams I am having to endure.  I am hoping that by speaking with others on the subject, maybe I will be able to move on with my life.  Thanks for listening, Chloe