Lost my mother on 5/20/15. Really need advice and guidance

My mother has been battling cancer since 11/14. In June of ‘13 my mom had a lung transplant which changed her life forever. No more O2 tanks, she was able to walk, go sledding, theme parks, camping the list goes on and on. I am 1 of 5 of her children and she has 12 grand-children. She was the best grand-mother you could ever imagine. When she developed lung cancer it spread rather quickly and took away her memory, apatite, moods. But she fought through it. My wife and I would bring her meds, fill her organizers weekly to make sure she was taking all of her medications. I have 2 younger brothers whom are 17 and 16. I do have 2 older sisters but they are drug addicts so my mother had me as her health care proxy to handle all the decision making. The night she went in to the hospital in a coma-state the dr said she had 2 hours and needed a decision from me I asked for a meeting that way I didn’t have to make it on my own. I changed her to DNR even though she always told me not too but the way the doctors persuaded me was so fucked. She went into hospice for 2 days and then woke up for a week or a little longer and she checked herself out of hospice and changed her status to full code. She stopped breathing and went on a vent again the doctors were trying to get me to pull the plug. I stood firm for my mother and said no. They said she will never wake up and will just suffer. Did that happen, no! She woke up and was asking for Physical Therapy. The doctors didn’t know what to say, they were honestly speechless and then they finally stopped pressuring me. It took me a lot of prayers to get through all of this and my relationship with God has grown beyond belief.



I did lose my mother on 5/20/15. My mom was all we had my father passed on 10/7/13. I have 2 little brothers that my wife and I are taking in because my mother wanted them with us (currently building bedrooms in finished basement) again they are 17 and 16. Today I had such a bad break. My mother was my rock, I have such this emptiness in my chest and literally hurt so bad, I felt crippled honestly. Idk what to do. I’m very religious and my pastor was very helpful throughout this whole process. I’m lost, hurt, scared. But I am blessed to be in the position I am to finish what my mother started and raising 2 young gentlemen. Please guys any advice would help. My wife is a HUGE a support but she is hurting when she sees me hurting as bad as I was today and she is 8 months pregnant. Any input would be very grateful. Thank you guys so much

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Comment by Anthony Mann on June 8, 2015 at 8:22pm
Thank you so much for sharing, you have lost a lot especially your son. They say parents and kids are the harder to overcome. You seem like you have come along way. As far as your mom my mother was kind of in the same state expect she forgot all of us. I would still hug her and see her everyday. Cherish every second you do have with her. I am very blessed to have a new born coming. So we will have a 6 y/o, 2 y/o and my 2 brothers who I mentioned above. My wife has been a huge support as we are only 27 years old. I to believe they can hear us, sometimes I scream to my mom and also yell at times. It's only been a couple of weeks but it's hard, very hard. I will keep you in my prayers as I ask you do the same for me. If there is anything you ever need or someone to talk to I'm here. That's a huge reason why I joined this group. Thank you so much for sharing.
Comment by Toni Jones on June 8, 2015 at 6:37pm

Hi Anthony. I don't really have advice so much as shared experience, in a way. My father has been gone since July 4 2012. The day after that my mother had some sort of epileptic type attack. She had stroke like symtoms but after many tests we were told it wasn't a stroke. She would talk to people  not in the room, make hand gestures as if she were working on something only she could see. She was repeating herself and stringing together sentences that made no sense. To this day, we don't know what happened. She has lucid days, but not always. They are few and far between. I have 4 brothers and I am the only girl. So, I was the only one taking care of her. Theres' more to the story, but this isn't about that. In a way, I've lost my mother too. I can't call her or talk to her. Her advice was always welcomed and that's gone. It's been 3 years and we all feel orphaned. I guess we are. But, you have a baby on the way who will bring you more joy than you could ever imagine. All of her accomplishments are the things you can still share with you parents, just in a different way. I'm sure both your mom and dad are somewhere close keeping a close eye on all of you. I talk to my son a lot. He's been gone since November 20, 2014. We have conversations all the time. I'll find myself talking out loud and people looking at me like I'm nutty. Maybe I am, but I believe that he hears me. So does my dad and my Nana. Talking out loud helps. Writing helps. And when your baby comes, that will be the medicine your broken heart needs. I am truly sorry for your loss. I am overjoyed with the future child. Many hugs.

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