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Comment by Marjorie Willcox on March 20, 2018 at 1:33pm

My goodness Maria how awful for you. That must have shaken you to the core. I can relate to the Siamese twins it was the same for us and I fear I'll never experience happiness again.i would settle for contentment but how can that be possible when we've lost the love of our lives.

Comment by Maria panettieri on March 19, 2018 at 2:54pm

I know your pain , my husband and I were like Siamese twins, we were on a holiday in Italy when I woke up to find him dead beside me. My whole world has fallen down , he was and still is the live of my life. I guess this is the ultimate price one pays when you love someone so much. I too like you don’t know how my life will go on

Comment by Marjorie Willcox on January 19, 2018 at 6:19am

Can someone tell me how to use this site to follow people

Comment by Marjorie Willcox on January 19, 2018 at 2:10am

Thankyou Karen for responding to my pain and sharing how you feel. It really is hell on earth.

Comment by Karen on January 18, 2018 at 9:40pm

I feel your pain. It has been only 7 months for me but some days I think it gets worse instead of better. The loneliness is overwhelming when they were such a big part of our world. 

Comment by Marjorie Willcox on January 18, 2018 at 3:14pm

Thankyou Alice for responding to my pain. I'm new to this site so not sure how it all works. I feel sure I'll never get over this loss but I'm comforted by getting a reply from you & Morgan Thankyou. It must be awful feeling the pain for so long and I wish you well

Marjorie

Comment by Marjorie Willcox on January 18, 2018 at 1:33pm

Morgan Thankyou so much for your response to my pain You say Sunday was your death day. When was that? It really helps to share with people who understands what we're going through..Bless you
Marjorie

Comment by morgan on January 18, 2018 at 1:21pm

Marjorie, I wish I could offer more than just I am sorry.........I've been wishing to wake up from my own nightmare for a long time but my own predicament is so in flux all the time I can at times be supportive but other times I am simply digging as deep as I can into my hole wishing never to return.  His death date is Sunday.  There is nothing I can do to stop the pain of reliving the walk to death much less the memories I have of all the years we loved each other so intensely.  I wish I could be of more help but I am struggling along every day with indescribable anguish of what death has done to me.  I just wanted you to know though that I have heard your pleas but I have no solution.  I take baby steps still.  Every day is a challenge.  In order to even write this I had to go through a breakdown as I came here to seek some solace and I saw your pain so I needed to write.  Yet I know for me that there really is no solace other than knowing I am not the only one seeking relief.  

I do know of other women who have been able to reconstruct and build a new life.  I have sort of kept up with their progress through other people I know.  But me, I am stuck.  I have more time where I can function better than I did but it always comes back to the one thing that I cannot let go of.  Him.  

I am now going to attempt to get something to eat.  One of the daily challenges.  At least I've gone from a diet of half an English muffin with peanut butter and a glass of apple juice to being able to cook an egg or make some pancakes.  That alone is huge.  Sleep is still erratic and elusive.  Feeling grounded to reality nonexistent.  Hygiene is ok.  Dressing is necessary but not something that gives me the pleasure of looking nice anymore, no need.  

Marilyn, I can only wish that you can find someone who will listen to your pain.  Someone who will be willing to go through this with you.  We are always here and though we might not respond all the time we do hear you and we empathize as we too feel the same. It’s just we are all struggling to patch our lives together and the energy it takes to do that precludes writing all the time when we have so many people coming here to find help with their pain.  Every day more people join this site (and others) which means there are alot of people out there faking a life.  I wish I could do more but I do hear you........take care the best you can.  

morgan