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Comment by Charlotte on October 28, 2010 at 7:31am

I seem to go through periods of time being happy and then the hard reality hits me between the eyes that my 35 yr old son is not coming back and somehow I feel like I could have done more. He was doing so well, looked great, getting his Trucker's license, preparing to work with him Dad and then he was found dead from a morphine overdose on Thanksgiving day last year. The last time I talked to him, which was the day before Thanksgiving,he was a little nervous and seemed worried. I tried to talk to him but he said he had to go and would see me Thanksgiving Day. I wish I had followed up and called him that night but I was trying to let him figure things out for himself. Thank goodness for this site because everyone is tired of hearing about my grief because they just want to go on and not think about Jeremy's death...they don't realize that sometimes a Mother just misses her child and needs to talk about him every few weeks. I know Jeremy is at peace but I miss him so much. Thank you for listening.

Comment by Charlotte on January 2, 2010 at 5:28pm

I am feeling very sad today at times, wondering why my son overdosed, what happened, could I have done something to prevent it? These questions go in and out of my mind. The drug world is so senseless and changes the person from that very moment they first try it. It helps to talk about my feelings on this site because other people are ready to move forward and I still have so many questions that will probably never be answered even after we receive the autopsy as to what happened that he snapped and his life was ended to just have a high.

Comment by Charlotte on January 1, 2010 at 5:10pm

Thank you Jonell for your kind words and prayers will be greatly appreciated. I have found that crying when the sadness hits me helps and leaves me feeling better. Drugs are a hell that we do not begin to understand and only the addict can drag themselves out of it completely. At least Heroin takes them off into a peaceful sleep and it is not a terrible death. I know one day I will see Jeremy again and you will see your friend, Geoff. They are not tormented any more and in a peaceful and happy place. My thoughts and prayers are with you too...Charlotte