My husband found out 1 year ago that he had colon cancer and it had gone to his liver. We went to the best doctors and he made it through the first big round of chemo in pretty good shape. Then it seemed as though everything they tried went downhill fast. He passed away on 9-30-2011. he wanted to die at home and I honored that request. When he passed away I was bweside him holding his hand. I am so glad that I was with him.  He had been my soul for the last 30 years. As long as I stay busy during the day I can cope, but when evening comes I cry my eyes out I miss him so much. I know they say it takes time. But I wonder.