I changed my profile photo again today.  The totally black image really was too dark, although I have been to some pretty dark places the last two days, it needed changed.  You can see it is now just a blank expression, black and white emoticon.  More symbolic of my evening moods, mornings still need to figure out.

Still miss my wife in the evenings, but my head doesn't spin with a high levels of anxiety.

I have an engineering degree and appreciate sound science, yet I truly wonder if psychology should be considered a science.  Humans have been suffering loss and grief since the birth of humanity, yet have any of us actually been given a definitive method and timeline to emerge from the unpleasant places we dwell?  All that the experts say is, everyone is different.  I disagree, all consuming emotional pain seems pretty standard among the people here.  There has to be a path that at least most of us can follow.  Rant against psychology over.

Need to get my own health issues corrected, I think that may alleviate some of the anxiety issues.  

I miss Cheryl.  One day at a time.