I want the sun to shine everyday. I want my loved ones to never die. I want to feel like a normal huan being. I want life to be better and happier. I want God to come here and talk to me about all the troubles that are happening. I want all animals to be treated with compassion and respect. I want children to never have to suffer abuse. I Want peace and love to rein everywhere. I want to sleep without the fire that tears my heart up every night. I want my granddaughter to be ok when she is born. I want every parent who has lost a child to never feel that pain again. I want my sons to b e herewith me. I want I want I want. Now that I got that out of my system. Today I'm feeling a little goofy. I cant put my finger on it. I am restless and jumpy. I wasnt to speak to others about the loss of a child. I want to be able to teach others how the greif thing works. I have so much to give and no where to give it. It's so frustrating to have all this knowledge and all this experience and no where to use ti or put it. What do I do? I would so much like to write a book about  greif and loss. I would like to write abook so that I can share everything. I have so much pent up inside me I feel as if I could explode. I want to scream at the top of my lungs and tell everyone that I know how you feel please let me help you. Helping you helps me. I guess i'm feeling a littlel crazy today. No one willtalk to me. I have so much to say and no one want s to listen. I think I will explode. KABOOM