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Comment by jennifer daniels on June 29, 2010 at 11:58pm

it is still hard for me now even when it's been 3 years , i can still remember it. i start crying after my cats passed away and i am still sad , even when i take my anti-depressants. i seems everything is passing away in front of me and i used to be able to handle it but now i cant.i sometimes, just want to curlup in an room and dont come out until i am ready. but i cant so much i have to do . especially my health that has go down hill. i wish id gone back home when she'd emailed me saying she'd been to the hosipal week before. i didnt say goodbye, i love you or anything. i didnt know she was in so much pain at the end . i start crying when i look at my hands and the way i am now . i remind myself of her . and people around me. . i guess i am venting because i lost 4 kitties in a mth. lost my baby blackcat october, and the halloween, and my mom's black cat, black baby and my cat had two babies both died. one day aprt of all of themexcept october. . there are days i want to run away and see pepople i know , but i am comfrontable here at home .

Comment by sharon on December 8, 2009 at 12:26am

Hi
I find my self in the same shoes as you do. i just lost my mother as well in 4 weeks ago and i miss her dearly too. i am crying so much and cant stop asking Why did she leave us for like this i have flash backs as the doctors replie to me she was not going to make it into the nite. i had 45 mins i spent with her and as i remember she was in a coma and out look so helpless and hopeless until i watched her heart Montior and her heart Dropped down to 0 I will not forget it when the nurse come to me and said Sweetie sorry she just passed away she is gone i come on glued and now with christmas coming its not even better because she was going to be here to help me to cook christmas dinner now here i am alone and doing this by my self.. i dont know why it hurts so bad Why i ask my self Why did she go she was not suppouse to leave us yet.. but the other night i had a dream of her and it was like wow.. to the point shortly after she was gone and i got tooken in to E.R for chest pains to do with stress and as i learned it was pantic attacks because i just over done with the stress of her being gone and cleaning her place and had no time to Cry because i was so busy and all . Now the shock wore off and relizes that she is gone, all we can do is try to be happy and think of good times and laughs i hope i can do with my family this christmas season . god bless you