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Comment by LoLo on October 27, 2015 at 7:57am

Thanks Dani. I really appreciate your encouraging words trying to help me figure this out. I would like to say that he died and that was the worst part. I am being accused of being the reason he died by his mother. She kicked me out of the house he and I shared. He died of a herion overdose, and we both were struggling with our addiction. Herion was not really his thing but I had it and what he used I brought in the house. I can see why she says it's my fault, but her calling me a murderer is literally eating at my spirit. I wish it would of been me that died. I'm actually jealous. I'm a mess ... obviously. But thanks again for listening. I hope you are having a good day.

Comment by Dani on October 26, 2015 at 11:28pm

LoLo,

I have been grieving for 56 days now. It has been, and will continue to be a darkness. But, from being on here, I have come to accept is that it is normal and we are meant to feel the chaos, conflict and pain of our beloved loss. I can't know your exact pain, but know that I am here with you and that you are not alone. 

The next few weeks will go by in an instant, and you will find yourself still feeling the excruciating throbbing and aching to be with them or to want them back. As you go through this, remember that they are with you, just not in the way you are used to. These may be empty words to you right now, and rightfully so. Know there are many of us experiencing all varieties and intensities of your loss, and we are here for you.