My boyfriend passed away on 01/08/2010. I still dont know what happened. The family and I are waiting for the autopsy report to let us know. Jeff was my world. He was my star. He was my everything. We did so many things together. I was suppose to move in his home the last weekend of January. We were both very excited about it. I spoke to him that day. He always called me in the mornings to wake me up. When he called me he sounded so full of life and energy. He was asking me if I was coming over after work and I told him yes and he was so happy and I was so happy. He told me he was going to call me when he got out of work or when he got a lil chance throughout the day. That phone call never came, instead I got a phone call telling me that he was found uncounscious. By the time I reached the hospital he was already gone. Each day that passes, I cant stop thinking about him. I cant stop thinking about what happened to my baby. What happened? Why did he leave me so suddenly...we were going to get marry, we had plans to have children. We had a promising future ahead of us. Now he is not here and I feel so lost, angry, helpless. I feel like my life is over. He was the first person I ever loved. He was the best thing that happened in my life. I miss him sooo much. I miss everything about him. The way he would smile. When Jeff smiled he lit up the whole room. It was such a beatiful smile. Oh god, I love him so much. What happened to my baby? what????? I have a huge whole in my soul. I feel like a big part of me is missing. I dont know how I am going to go on without him. He came in to my life and help loose 130lb he even help me to quit smoking. He was my angel. He was my soulmate.