Sept 1 st was my son 4 month passing day. I set curled in a ball all weekend
Not wanting to move are get out of bed this weekend seems I don't want to love at the first of each month now since I lost Matt on may 1st 13. I did get upset with his fiancée when she called me Sat. Night drunk telling me the guy we suspect either shot my Son
Up with the drug that kid him tripping our hat that nite I was totally up set because she forced our hand now we were gather as much info b4 going to sheriff. Yes my son had a choice that morning but I never heard of shooting meth all I ever new was he would swallow it. However I had my head in the sand I thought he'd given it up after his boys were born. I so sorry to the woman whom blog earlier. I mad at my partner because he's not Matthew father so I feel he doesn't totally understand how I feel. I chew him out all the time over the littles things. Where as Matthew real father show up
At the hospital after he'd passed and he didn't even come to our memorial we had for Matthew June 2, 2013 . Which why that surprised me is beyond
Me he was never in Matthew life ever.
I raised my son I thought I'd done a better job until returning to Texas in1996 we move to a small town where there wasn't anything there to d unless
U came to Longview, Tyler, or Dallas Texas so like many young people get into drugs. The drug meth is a epic ident here in east Texas our teen's, 20,30, 40, and some 50s and 60s.
So I was shock when the autopsy came in the first of Aug. again I don't know completely what u going thru but I find myself pushing my partner away.
I don't know where we'll be in a year. I know I like better when he at work. The days he has off are tough at times so Matthew passing is changing my life and in some cases not for the better. I hate first of month now. Thanks Judy Edwards