Each day my heart breaks. Each day I go on. I don't ever want to forget all of the specialness of her and of our relationship. Jayne was my best friend, my biggest support, and I miss her terribly. But life wants to continue. I wish we had another day, moment, conversation. A chance to smile and laugh together. I want to honor her and cherish the time we did have, but sometimes I am so sad. I find now I don't really want to reach out to friends very much. I do have support; I don't always use it. I want to get "thru" this, yet I don't want to go anywhere! I am not ready to let go...