Yesterday on the radio I heard a Father's Day ad for Hallmark and it made me so sad. I was thinking about last Father's Day and remember that we all (my sister, my brother, my mom, our husbands, kids AND my Step Dad) went to the nursing and rehab center to spend it with my bio Dad since he was there. It was great to be able to celebrate with both of my Dad's in the same place on Father's Day. This Father's Day I am able to celebrate that my bio Dad is doing well however the loss of losing my Step Dad over powers any celebrating. 

Just two day's after Father's Day will be 3 months since Dad's passing. No only did I lose a Dad, my kids lost their Peepaw, my Mom lost her sole mate, my brother lost the man who has raised him since he was a toddler and my bio Dad lost another of his good friends. Many of our hearts are still heavy with grief and we are all dealing with it in our own way. Every where I look I see memories of you. I walk through Mom's house and see the holes in the wall that you patched but never got around to painting. I walk into the office and see the corner that your desk used to sit. I walk into Mom's bedroom and see the dresser that used to be yours. Mom has started getting rid of and putting up memories of you. She got rid of your recliner and bought a new couch and love seat, she moved your desk out of the office and put a bed in there, she redid the Master bedroom the way she wanted, along with many other little things like putting away all your M&M dispensers and John Deere tractor stuff. I know that Mom misses Dad like crazy and that she is dealing with his loss in her own way. 

Dad I know you are with me because I feel you however I would give so much to have you here again with us. 

CANCER SUCKS!!! DEATH SUCKS!!!