It has been 3 months and 6 days since my fiance Norman passed away. I feel like I am living in a nightmare that I can not wake up from. I feel like it was just yesterday that I saw him for the very last time. There are days that I still can't believe he is gone. I cry every single day. I just wish this pain of losing him would go away. 

I hate when people ask are you ok? I just want to scream no I am not ok! How would you feel if you lost your best friend, your soul mate, the other half of yourself? Then you have the people who say I understand what your going through. Let's be honest you have no idea what I am going through so please stop pretending that you have any idea.

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Comment by rachel_micele on May 19, 2015 at 10:04pm

Indeed, this is a total nightmare that doesn't go away. It's been 10 weeks today (Tuesday) and I still feel like I'm living this bad dream. It's so awful. I also wanted to comment on Alice's comment of being robbed as I feel that too. Gary and I were not engaged like you Traci but in our hearts it's like we were. This year we were going to get our place together and start our entire future. I'm 35, he was 46 and what is left is all our empty "somedays" of those things we always talked about but now will never experience.

Comment by dream moon JO B on May 17, 2015 at 5:36pm

im so sorry traci p

i no way u feal u get sic of vry sayn im sorry r u ok or it gets easy iv bean hear sisne 2012 had multi loss u cud say it sonds lik a hit list 

dad dies i get told get over it or else i cnt thn multi loss foloors i end up bean a foul mothd person person i wz not

i end up off rails person i wz she died 2 

i jus wish thy wud put in obrtsy person his dorter onse wz has gon she will not be person she wz seh she had multi loss 2 mush multi yea u cud say shs fealin sorry 4 her slf but shes shes not its coz of 2 mush loss

i get sic of bean told way i shud feal i no way  if;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;KING feal im hrt

Comment by Alice Catron on May 17, 2015 at 5:17pm

the only ones who TRULY know what you are going through are the ones on this site. Specifically those who have lost a mate/spouse. BUT, you are right that YOUR STORY is YOURS, and not one person in this world knows exactly what you are going through. There are similarities...but not the same..not by a long shot. You didn't get the joy of marriage and it was stolen from you. I had 39 years (40 on July 25th)...so I have memories, children, all that you were supposed to have. You got ROBBED...I am sooooooooo sorry Traci, and I have even said I am going to ask God why He doesn't have a 2 for 1 deal!!!. this just SUCKS!

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