My elder sister passed away on 24th September 2016. I do not know how to express myself. 

She had come to visit me on April as my uncle was here and i always complained that she did not come to visit me just me. She had said that she will come to visit me but then before she left we fought on something and i did not get to say a proper good bye to her. 

I was going to visit her on October and had even purchased air tickets and i did even texted her but she did not reply to me. 

Few days before she passed on my brother in law said that she is admitted to hospital which was Thursday that due to low blood count and doctors are suspecting leukemia and are doing testing i did tell him shall i come but he said they are doing testing and not yet confirmed. I tried to talk to her but she was busy with doctors. 

On Fri, i texted her but she did not respond and also called her could not get to talk to her and heard her voices in the background. On Fri evening itself by brother in law called me saying that she went to coma and she has brain tumor i did flew that day and went reached in really late night probably 1 am on sat she was in life support. The doctors told that they cannot do anything as due to tumor in brain stem. On Sat morning she passed away. 

I miss her so bad and i did not get to talk to her. I have a lot of pain in my heart I need to look after my mom, dad and brother. I feel lot of stress she was my only hope and support although we used to fight a lot and not in talking terms. Sometimes i am ok at other times the pain just feels like bursting. .....

I am not sure where she is and if we will ever meet I love her so much.