It was back to school for Nicholas today, just starting 2nd grade.  I had so much built up anxiety about this day.

Not about him returning to school, but more of what was I going to do with myself.

We got to spend the entire summer together, since I work evenings, we had each and everyday to do whatever we

wanted to do.

So, after I took him to school, I went out job hunting to find a job with a 40 hour workweek.  I know, good luck with that huh?  

Later, I stopped at a church, lit a candle for my lovely wife's spirit, and a candle for Nicholas and I prayed that he will remain strong and do great in school.

My last stop was at a neighborhood park, it was 'our park', (what Jami used to call it), and I sat on a bench looking like Forrest Gump, (suit and all) , right alongside of water fountain.  That was the most peaceful and relaxing sound that I can't say I never heard before!  Have you ever listened to water?  It has a language of it's own.  Listening to the sound of water falling is one thing, but hearing it is another. 

Water is the liquid spirit of life.  It has a language and a sound unlike anything else.

We drink it, cook with it, bathe in it, baptize in it, purify ourselves in it, swim in it, surf and ski on it, dive in it, and sail or boat on it!  And, almost forgot to mention the toilet (but who really wants to) .

Water is what we are mostly made up of!  

We are living water, and if water is alive and spiritual, then so are we most definitely.

I have no doubts that my faith will conquer this grief, it's just the daily on and off earthly weaknesses that we all have to struggle with.

Not much else today, except that I found some peace through listening and hearing the sound of water.

Maybe that sound is the language of the spirit. Whatever it is, it took me away to a peaceful and refreshing place!
I love and miss my wife Jami and my Mom so much, but rather than cry and stew, I now have the sound of water in my head.  It is the spirit of the waters, and they flow freely to a place that can carry all of our heart aches away!  

I'm going to keep trying to go there....not just.to the park where the fountains are, but to where the water carries me away to!  So refreshing, uplifting, and heavenly!

Take a listen for yourself, close your eyes, and rather than just hearing it's sound, really listen to it, and it will take you places!

May heaven bless you all!
Michael