It is day 2 since my husband passed. I had to fill out something today that asked marital status. That just threw me off. It was so hard to say widowed. I am trying so hard to stay positive and try to celebrate  how blessed I was to have him in my life. Sometimes it just doesn't seem real. And then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I would like people to stop asking me how I m doing. I know they care but the answer seems pretty obvious. I am in the walking around in circles stage, not able to focus on what to do or complete anything even though there is so much to do. Then I thought how am I ever gong to get back into the dating stage again. Not that I am even thinking about another relationship now but I am only 56. My mind is swimming. I miss him so much.