why do i miss her so much..Probably because this was our month the month we celebrated us being october babies together. My mom was my life her and my dad. Now she is gone and I have dad living with me which is a constant reminder she is gone. I am not depressed just sad. I get tired of people saying I am depressed and dont know how to deal with it. Well I know how to deal with alot of things they need to just back off and let me be me. I am happy I am here for dad and I am happy for all the memories I made with my mom. I just wish i had done more for her or with her. She was an amazing woman that had a love for life. She volunteered, raised 3 girls, helped me with my daughter whom misses her meme everyday. She was my back up for when I needed it. the times we laughed baked and just spent time together was amazing and I thank god everyday for the days he did give me with her. I do know that i have a faith in god more now than ever he has really helped me thru some really hard times. I feel lost and confused most days but I have my own health issues I have to work thru and just feel like I had no one to talk to or vent too. I have anger towards my sisters whom refuse to grow up or dont even try to help me. I am one person and I live the life of 3 and yet still dont get respect or told you are a good person and are doing a good job. If it was not for my moms friends from highschool i would be lost ..