It seems my mom is always in my dreams or the ones I remember anyway. It's better because I don't wake up crying now. It's the same kind of dreams I would have when she was alive. From what I have heard it usually takes a long time for your loved one to come to you in dreams so I try to be thankful for it. It still hurts when I wake up and she's gone but at least I have that.

Weighing heavy on my mind day and night. What a useless worry that has become my biggest fear. In an instant it became my new companion. Will it's nagging go away or only get worse? Now more than ever it is important to live for the day, for the moment.

"Stay focused".

"Don't live your life with regrets".