I just wanted to be able to hold you just once more. The kiss in the coffin is as close as I got. I think of you contantly and wonder if I am just dead too. I feel like a zombie walking amongest the living trying to put on a "normal" appearance. I hardly had time to process your cancer diagnosis and suddenly I was empty without you. The kids seem to be adjusting in their own way. I just feel the void of you everywhere.